I didn’t get any sleep last night. I know I shouldn’t be stressing myself out so much, but I have never encountered something like this. I actually feel empty because I know my amigo is laying in a hospital bed. I can’t sleep until I see him for myself and give myself the piece of mind that he is okay.
Joel is in intensive care and I just had the biggest panic attack of my life. Who the fuck still king hits people? I am so fucking furious and afraid. I can’t keep myself together. I love that boy too much and I’m fucked if I lose him.
My closet’s full of skeletons I’m eager to forget. It’s time for them to leave so I need to get them dressed. I try to ignore the demons in my head; I won’t speak to ‘em again, but at the same time they’re keeping me in check. #me #neverthoughtiwouldlike360
Sick of feeling like I don’t fit in anywhere. It’s as if I’m too weird for people. I feel empty because I have so much love to give and no one to shower with affection. Lonely feels tonight.
IF SOMEONE MAKES YOU FEEL BAD FOR THE BANDS YOU LISTEN TO OR THE WAY YOU TAKE YOUR COFFEE OR HOW YOU WEAR YOUR HAIR OR WHAT YOU WEAR OR THE WAY YOUR LAUGH SOUNDS THEN FUCKING DROP THEM LIKE THE PIECE OF SHIT THEY ARE AND GO FIND SOMEONE WHO THINKS YOUR LAUGH SOUNDS LIKE THE BEST GODDAMN SONG THEY’VE EVER HEARD AND OFFERS TO MAKE YOUR COFFEE FOR YOU AND THINKS YOU DRESS LIKE ART
Sydney bound in September! I’m going to Defqon but I think I might stay a little longer afterwards. I don’t even know what there is to do in Sydney, but I’m sure it’s more interesting than the Gold Coast/Brisbane!